Funny you mentioned Pascal, as well.. for I'll be honest, I just finished the third essay in Antony's book by Daniel Garber (I'm doing some serious catching up this weekend), and I'd never really looked at Pascal's Wager in the sense that Garber did. I can also closely relate to his claim that he likes to "tour" the world of the believers, but he could just never live there. And as Garber described of Pascal's claim that even if we don't believe, we should act as believers do, I just can't convince any part of myself that doing so would really amount to much of anything. Like he stated, you either do, or you don't.
So I guess what my point to all this is and what really stuck out to me in Garber's essay is Pascal's quoting God at the bottom of page 36:
"There is enough light for those who desire to see, and enough darkness for those of a
Maybe down the road I'll change my "stubbornness" in this matter, perhaps I never will, and for either to happen is quite alright with me, for I don't really see it mattering in the first place. But I can't help but to question God's purpose if he did exist. If, through God, we find a [better] reason/meaning to life, then in the end, what is God's overall reason for anything? Perhaps the majority of us find ourselves smack dab in the middle of heaven's lair in the end of it all. What do we say? Do we shake God's hand and in awe congratulate him for keeping us on our toes all these years? Most of us would agree that a little more than that would be said. Nevertheless, I find it hard to imagine a God that is so demanding of a love that for some is simply impossible to generate.